【歌詞中譯】RAYE - “Ice Cream Man.” 冰淇淋販子

中譯byBone

So, this producer hit me up on the DM
某天有位製作人傳私訊給我
He told me, "Hey, I really like what you are doing"
他告訴我，"嘿，我真的很喜歡你的作品"
He told me, "Come 'round to the studio. Let's cook it"
他說，"來我的錄音室吧，我們一起玩音樂"
He told me, "Come to catch a vibe and make some music"
他說，"來感受一下氛圍並創作一些音樂吧"

But when I got there, should've heard what he was saying
但當我到那時，你知道他對我說了些什麼嗎
Tryna touch me, tryna fuck me I'm not playing
他試著亂摸我，試著上我，我沒跟你開玩笑
I should have left that place as soon as I walked in it
我當時就應該立刻掉頭就走
How, goddamn, dare you do that to me, really?
你他馬怎麼敢這樣對我，你是認真的嗎?

Coming like the ice cream man
就像個誘人的冰淇淋販子
'Til I felt his ice-cold hands
直到我碰觸到他冰冷的手
And how I pay the price now, damn
而我現在付出代價了，該死
goddamn, no, what the, goddamn
該死，不，真他馬該死的
Everything you did, it left me in a ruin
你的所作所為，都陷我於萬劫不復
And, no, I didn't say a word
而且，當時我一個字都沒說
I guess that proves it
我猜那證明了
I'm a woman, ah yes
我是個女人，是的

'Cause I'm a woman
正因我是個女人
I'm a very fucking brave strong woman
我是個他馬非常勇敢強壯的女人
And I'll be damned if I let a man ruin
我拒絕被一個男人摧毀
How I walk, how I talk, how I do it
我如何走路，如何說話，如何做事的方式
Man, I've been broken for a moment
我也曾崩潰過一陣子
I've been through it, no
我也有過那種經歷
It's even harder to be brave alone
單獨一個人勇敢是艱難的
Was a girl, now I'm grown
本來只是個女孩，但現在我成長了
I'm a woman
我是個女人
A very fucking strong woman
一個超級無敵強大的女人

And I was seven
當我七歲那年
Was twenty-one, was seventeen and was eleven
又或是二十一、十七、還是十一歲
It took a while to understand what my consent means
我花了好長一段時間才理解什麼叫"自主同意"
If I was ruthless, they'd be in the penitentiary
如果我狠下心來，那些衣冠禽獸就會鋃鐺入獄
But all the stress of being honest wouldn't help me
但誠實帶來的一切壓力對我毫無幫助
I pushed it down but it was living in me rent-free
我壓抑，但它還是肆無忌憚常駐我心
And then I fell into some things that were unhealthy
然後我染上了一些不健康的習慣
A place where no one heard me, asking them to help me
陷入了一種沒人能聽見我求救吶喊的處境

Coming like the ice cream man
就像個誘人的冰淇淋販子

'Til I felt his ice-cold hands
直到我碰觸到他冰冷的手
And how I pay the price now, damn
而我現在付出代價了，該死
goddamn
該死
Everything you did, it left me in a ruin
你的所作所為，都陷我於萬劫不復
And, no, I didn't say a word
而且，當時我一個字都沒說
I guess that proves it
我猜那證明了
I'm a woman
我是個女人

'Cause I'm a woman
正因我是個女人
I'm a very fucking brave strong woman
我是個他馬非常勇敢強壯的女人

And I'll be damned if I let a man ruin
我拒絕被一個男人摧毀
How I walk, how I talk, how I do it
我如何走路，如何說話，如何做事的方式
Man, I've been broken for a moment
我也曾崩潰過一陣子
I've been through it, no
我也有過那種經歷
It's even harder to be brave alone
單獨一個人勇敢是艱難的
Was a girl, now I'm grown
本來只是個女孩，但現在我成長了
I'm a woman
我是個女人
A very fucking strong woman
一個超級無敵強大的女人

I wish I could say how I feel
我希望能大聲說出我的心聲
How I felt and explain why
我的感受，和解釋為何
I'm silently blaming myself
我只是默默自責
'Cause I put on these faces pretending I'm fine
因為我總是強顏歡笑裝沒事
Then I go to the bathroom
當我去上洗手間時
And I press "Rewind" in my head
我總是在腦海中重播當時發生的事
Always going 'round and 'round in my head
那就像是腦中揮之不去的無盡夢魘
Your fingerprints stuck a stain on my skin
你的指紋在我身上留下去不掉的汙漬
You made me frame myself for your sin
你讓我陷害自己為你背罪
You pathetic, dead excuse of a man
你這可悲、死要硬坳的垃圾男人

I'm a brave strong woman, oh, yeah
我是個成熟勇敢的女人

And I'll be damned if I let a man ruin, oh
我絕對不會被一個男人毀了
I'm a very fucking brave strong woman, yeah
我已經是個超級無敵強大的女人。

*這首令人心碎的歌非常重要, 非常脆弱又非常勇敢, 而且還非常好聽 

是在敘述RAYE曾被性侵和之後怎麼重新站起來的勵志經歷, 她以驚人的才華與勇氣, 把個人慘痛的經驗轉換昇華為藝術, 並激勵拉有過相同經歷的人一把, MV也拍得很好, 被上下其手的那段看得既氣憤又噁心, 有觸發創傷的警告, 可以去看看YT有些男人的聽歌反應

**參考巴哈 [賈斯汀閔我老公<3]翻得很不錯的幾句

***blur也有一首叫"Ice Cream Man"的歌

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